I am a thirty-something aspiring author who deals with anxiety and depression on a daily basis. Also a ten time National Novel Writing Month winner.
Born and raised in Southern New Hampshire, I currently reside in a small town on the NH/VT border (I can see Vermont from my window!). I have an upstairs apartment in a house I share with my parents and the memories of my temperamental kitty, Mr. Muggles.
When not writing, I knit while watching crime shows and read books or comics, depending on my mood. I’m a proud spinster aunt, geeky memorabilia collector, knitter, and the person who always has what you need in her purse.
I cannot remember a time when I was not writing. As early as fourth grade I remember using free moments in class to scribble in my notebooks. One of my friends asked me for my autograph because he said I was gonna be famous someday (Hi Jeff! You might have to wait a little longer for that investment to turn out.).
I wrote fan fiction throughout my teens, enjoying a modest amount of popularity. In my twenties, a bout of depression hit and stole a lot from me, including my love of writing. I set my writing aside. I let my website expire. I thought that writing just wasn’t something I was interested in anymore.
I’m happy to say I was wrong! A few years ago I returned with a vengeance. My depression under control most days, my only problems are my love of television crime shows and a degree in Procrastination.
I’ve lived with mental illness my entire life, although I wasn’t diagnosed with Social and General Anxiety Disorders until I was seventeen. A lovely crockpot of genetics has also blessed me with a dash of OCD, a sprinkle of agoraphobia, and a cupful of depression.
Most days medication, therapy, and a good support system keep me afloat, but the dark days come. They likely always will. All I can do is make the most of the good ones.
I hope sharing my mental illness story publicly will help others to feel less alone, especially writers. Anxiety, Depression, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, they all have an impact on our creative lives. Some say they are what fuels our creativity.
If you’re a writer, someone with mental illness, or know someone who writes/has mental illness, this is the blog for you. Please enjoy my adventures as An Anxious Author.